Saturday, October 6, 2007 @9:28 AM
hmm after a few posts, i have finally decided to post..
took me a while emoing before i have made up my mind. i have learnt not to emo-rant straight away, but to consolidate and reflect before posting every single blog post... so these are well thought up words, hahaha!!
btw, chill. i'm sure to post one more time at least, haha.
4F... since 3F, many of you have brought happiness to my life. when i came in, there werent many old friends from sec1 and 2 classes, only fernando. many friendships had to be built, and rebuilt.
amongst which i'm thankful that so many of us are christian, easy to get along with. easy to openly share problems with. easy to pray for each other, its been such a blessing...
besides happiness though, sec4 had been the most "happenning" year of my life, with lotsa downs, and little ups. problems that no one has faced before did occur to me, on top of horrible results. NEVERTHELESS, you guys supported me all the way, though sometimes i feel lonely, but there will always be a few random people in whom god works so miraculously in to come up and ask "are u ok? wads been up?"
and its these little things that make 4F really special..
then came a time when i decided to make the cell group idea a reality, and thought praying for mid years (was it?) would be a good idea. the fire came for the whole term, almost every week smsing u guys, etc. and it was ministering, it was the best feeling i ever had with this class...
however, it dawned upon me after june that i wasnt cut out to be serving in ways like this when i couldnt handle basic disciplines like studies and homework.. getting into trouble with miss wong, ong, etc. i kinda lost it... i felt colder, isolated from the smarts of this class, so distant..
after a while though, delci picked up the prayer group again, and i was really happy someone else could rise up for it, someone who i know would be a good role model to lead us. and then i fell right back to where i was before, with christians praying and gathering all around again.
this farewell was unlike others.. i'm happy, i feel accomplished and touched... and even though part of me wants to leave, but then on the friday itself, i couldnt, really. i find myself so already deeply rooted into the fairfield culture and everything the teachers said made my heart tear. (not eyes so u dun really see anth) especially miss lee.
recovering from what breaks u really makes u stronger, and 4F has led me to become the person i am now, (its the total opposite from sec2.. if u read my blog's archives hahahaha)
finally, for everybody. and i hope my encouragement still counts: JIAYOU AND PUSH LIKE U"VE NEVER DONE BEFORE. 2 weeks determine ur path. so GO AHEAD AND PUSH!!!
tts all, coldplaying.keith.
ps. the design of this blog is still incomplete. will try throwing in everyone's faces SOMETIME MUCH LATER.
to robin and eunice and blog freaks, u have total access to the template:)
Cubic Rubic